Two-sided

Sometimes...

Life is hard
It seems the other side

We owned the world
The world own us

I feel that it's great to live
I feel it's better to die

We burst into laughter
We cry a tear

I feel so inspired
but feel deceived later on
and shudder at the thought of it

Friends are there
Their shadows are nowhere

We meet people unexpectedly
We lose some suddenly

We forgive easily
but no easier to forget

I feel i'm special
Nobody cares at all

We're at the top
but what goes there,
goes bottom

We try to kill the time
that is chasing after us

Love dared by the heart
Only to keep apart

Distance away
But true love will forever stay

Pinoy-style Pasko

I can see the trees rustle through the cool and gentle breeze in the morning. I can already feel the gradual change of the season.

Temperature check. 27 degrees. That would approximately be 10 degrees below the average temperature of summer heat in Dubai. If you’re from Dubai, you will understand why such drop is a big deal and why just people feel the excitement like it is the most awaited time of the year. If people living their entire life in the winter-spring-summer-fall places can’t wait to get rid of those shovels, boots and winter coats, here, people, I guess, can’t wait to wear those winter stuffs and eager to say goodbye to summer. How ironic.

Anyway, that’s not the only thing I am excited about these days and in fact not the primary. Kapag malamig na ang simoy ng hangin, that would mean Christmas is also in the air. Yes, it’s Christmas! My most favorite part of the year and my most awaited holiday to celebrate is fast approaching day after another. You’ll soon wonder the countdown is over (just to start again another earth’s revolution) and days gone in a snap (yes, that’s how fast time is.)

But hey, you think that’s all? No, no, no way!

Actually, the main point for this blog is this: Babaita just called our travel agency regarding my flight booking in going home to the Philippines. Yes, I’ll be having my second vacation in perfect time for Christmas, a thing I thought I would never experience again. After two awful Christmases in a Muslim world, I’m gonna be spending it, finally, Pinoy style. That would mean, together again with family on Noche Buena, Pinoy Christmas bazaar which I miss so much, kids and adults alike, house-hopping in their Christmas carols and all other stuffs you can see in Pinoy-style Christmas.

But the mere presence of the people I love and care about on Christmas is what simply defines my happiness and what gives meaning to it. Now tell me, who wouldn’t be ecstatic about this?

Can’t wait to greet ya’ll a Merry Christmas and a Prosperous New Year!

S.O.S.

Manila is in dire situation after the catastrophic aftermath of the bagyong Ondoy (Ketsana storm). People really need a lot of help this time, shelter particulary. I have heard a lot of private sectors, including individuals in and out of the country, pushing hard and reaching out for help to the victims. I salute the them for the difference made big or small, it doesn't matter. I know that the Philippines is every now and then hit by storms, it actually is a passageway whenever a storm is born. I'm not sure statistically, but I think it happens every year. And every year, thousands of people die or displaced. Of course we cannot appeal Mother Nature to be merciful or less violent. Only we can hope that a possible solution will bring forth into surface to avoid repeat in the future. Something that will prevent high flood so that no one gets eroded and dies. Would it be possible, government? Please do something. Calling all presidentiables, vice-presidentiables, & all aspiring for government office in the forthcoming 2010 election, can you include this in your plaftform? I believe something should be done.

Hello

(from my multiply site, 27.07.09)

Whew! I feel like I'm being resurrected here. I feel like this (multiplying) is something new to me. At least, the site has been upgraded, i suppose. I see a little bit changes in the interfaces (how IT!), anyhow, navigating around here isn't much a headache.

I've barely visited my site. It’s been a while since the last time I have posted something catching here. Still don't know when I get to blog next. Seems that I pretty much lost my literary interest, if I may say. (Because) lately, I’ve been doing other stuffs and doing practically NOTHING, to say the least. It has made my vocabulary evaporate and deteriorate, and my creativity stagnant.

My life’s pretty plain right now. No drama (it’s over and done. hate it!). Not bumpy. Neither euphoric. It’s the one chapter in my book you would have rather skipped reading because there’s barely any excitement in there.

This plainness bores me and a little sense of drama is probably one of the many, many things I am lacking right now. If you are with too much emotions (whatever that emotions are) ready to burst, you find bursting them into words much easier and spontaneous than having plain emotions. It drives you. It kicks you.

I guess, I just need these kind of drive and inspiration. I mean not flooding tears on my pillow. I just need to be really, really inspired and driven, not only to come up with a ‘word-fest’, but simply to go away from the plainness.

By the way, tomorrow 28th, I’ll be 28 (how timing is that?). Not as excited though as anyone having his upcoming birthday, ‘cos I’m ageing another year yet I still have this delusion of being young. LOL! Cliché has it that age is but a number; at least, the thought makes me feel good. Happy birthday to me!

If you were a book, what are you?

If I were a book, I would be 'Eat Pray Love' by Elizabeth Gilbert. The minute I first read the book's brief description at the back cover, I instantly thought it is a nice book to read. Plus there's 'International Bestseller' on the cover. To be a bestseller must have been something to say that a book is of best quality, entertaining and reaches the heart of the readers.

The book is actually a memoir of Elizabeth's travel to three countries with names happened to start with letter 'I'. The course of her travels happened within 1 year, spending 4 months in each country. In chronological order, the countries she visited and lived were Italy, India and Indonesia. The travel was a soul-searching kind of activity after a difficult divorce that along her journey, she found self-restoration of some sort and the journey did not end without her finding the answers and happiness that she was looking for.

Elizabeth's thoughts were my thoughts in so many ways. I was stunned at how she actually put these thoughts into words, vividly. I thought she was my voice. I thought she was writing in behalf of me. I thought she was me.

What I like about Elizabeth apart from her creativeness and eloquence in writing her memoir is that she is really funny. She makes it a point that she doesn't bore her readers. And it is true, I read the book without any sense of boredom at any given moment. In fact, I did not want to finish reading it as I enjoyed every page so much.

How about you? Have you thought what book are you?

Being sane is insanity

1. Waiting is torturous, especially if you do not know what you are waiting for.
2. It is difficult to muster reading somebody's mind because you end up theorizing based on fleeting shared encounter. You might end up believing with a wrong theory.
3. To trust or to doubt somebody's sincerity is a dilemma to me.
4. Some people find it difficult to be consistent...maybe because; 1) they are really inconsistent by nature, 2) they are having second thoughts of the things they should be consistent about or 3) they are just into a 'mode' other than being consistent. Who's predictable anyway?
5. Why do I keep on writing when I promised not to write for a while (Because you see I write about non-sense things.)
6. Well, what can I do? I love writing. I don't care if I wrote non-sense and shallow. I didn't promise the world anything anyway.
7. I can't write when I'm happy. I usually write when I'm bothered. I am bothered a lot lately thus the blithering.
8. Behind this happy disposition and open-mindedness lies thread of inhibitions. I refuse to cry lest they think I'm weak. It is with only one can I cry a river of tears...because it is only He who can wipe those tears away to make me feel better beyond compare.
9. I wondered when can be the next time. Will there be?
10. I look forward for a wonderful conversation and then benefit insight from each other's wisdom (who's the other each?)
11. I want to be away with the fairies for a while.
12. Total surrender was spinning in my mind today. I want to surrender to HIM everything. I want HIM to take control of my life. I am excited for His blessings.
13. Smile...smile...smile...'cause there's no way for me to look better than to smile. Hahaha!

All roads lead to Rome

This phrase was like a post-it in the bulletin board of my mind, never fails to remind me of our planned Roman holiday this coming Eid, by God's will. Oh yeah, this post-it just made me giggle with excitement at the thought of it.

I love to travel, who doesn't? If I were just given the luxury to travel to any places at my fancy, I would definitely make my way to my favorite places, most of them situated in the European continent. There's Paris, the most romantic city as they say. Though I'm not much after of the romantic aura the city exudes or finding, for that matter, a Parisian man kissing me with a French kiss or holding hands while walking in front of Eiffel Tower...I just love the city because the city is a work of art itself. Just magnificent! There's a lot more in my list about the magnificent (sorry for the redundance) places in Europe which I guess you travel monsters (pardon again my french) are familiar of, if not been there already.

But nothing beats the Roman touch for me now. That's why if there's a European city I would have to visit first, definitely it's Rome, Paris next (Does it sound like Angels and Demons first, the Da Vinci Code next? Though between the two movies, I pretty much like latter more. What good is the former without the latter, the reason why the latter became a movie first despite being a sequel to the former novel...I think...pardon this segue.)

Anyway...

Europe, a dream to make a reality...a place to see...a place to be..But of course, reality check, I am not that fortunate enough to do all these travel pamperings. It's okey! I'm satisfied having it one day at a time. No one bites the whole apple in one time anyway! (Does this comparison make sense?)

A couple of friends and I are planning to spend the Eid holiday in Rome. And as I said, I am really excited for this at the point of dying if this wouldn't push through. The problem with me is when I become over-excited, the thing I am excited about wouldn't happen...it gets screwed up to my dismay. This one, I've been praying hard to happen smoothly as planned without stumbling blocks along the way. So relax (Please God, please! heheh!)

All roads lead to Rome! My roommates often hear me saying this when topic about Rome besieged our conversation. I mean this has both literal and figurative meaning. Literally, of course the Roman Empire built those roads that lead to it. Figuratively, it could mean many ways depending on how you interpret it. But for me, it could only mean this way: my path is paved and headed to Rome on Eid holiday this September, the hell I care with my boss, by hook or by crook, I'm gonna be there! My feet already stand in awe at the Roman soil. LOL!

Roma qui vengo! That is, i'm not mistaken, Rome here I come!

CIAO!!!