Welcome 2009

At the start of 2008, I received a gift…a very special gift. In fact, I was the happiest person on Earth to have ever received that present. I was happy…then. But, one year and everything in between, was enough for me to make me realized that what I perceived could be a nirvana, was only a dream. One year was full of asking…questioning…wondering…guessing, in cyclical manner…and which I could describe the vagueness as closed to being apparent…and that it is hard to believe and hope for something that isn't there, without truth in substance but lies. In the end, God has a way of REVEALING to me all the answers to the why’s and what’s I sought so hungrily, crystal clear. Now, it signifies a full stop. THEN…move forward…because no matter how and no matter what…dot…dot…dot…Life cannot be lived backwards. Our solace…the never-ending lessons in life…and the experience that can we can share that once in our lifetime, we have traveled that road…no one did.

For this brand new year…2009…I welcome YOU with a blast!!! I bid goodbye to 2008…which when you look back are only shadows from the past. There were times, you are challenged to hold back tears. Many things have caused you hurt deep inside and nursing those cuts and bruises, was all you could do… Now I see a lot of scars in my heart and I don’t know if they will ever be healed even through time…because I know that wounds do not heal fast…and the scars that they left, just like the physical scars in my body…will remain, I think, as long as I live.

But, hey, it’s time to make a fresh start. A happy start. I am hopeful that 2009 will turn direction and change its course away from negative implications from the year that just passed. I pray to my Father that I will finally grasp that utopic happiness, if there could be such a thing. I pray that God will give our deepest desires. I pray that whatever it is that should be found…I will find.

And I couldn’t end this without giving praise and thanksgiving to my Father for being my source of spiritual strength. No amount of words can encapsulate how I thank you for blessing me with your powerful grace. In everything I do, I long to do it for your glory!