January is over. The next time I check, it's December again. Waaah! Time shoots like a rocket when you want it to walk like a turtle. By that, I mean if there is anything I could do in my power to preserve time, I will do that. There are so many things yet to be done at this point in my life before probably hitting thirties. As in a LOT! I know this is all about midlife crisis.
On the other hand, if I'd want the world to pace slow, everything else will follow the same pace. I get bored and run out of patience most of the time especially when you have set of expectations and high hopes already laid ahead of you, that you will almost think of the saying 'patience is a virtue' is ridiculous, only a cliche. And I would say 'God is very slow in answering my prayers'.
I know I am very sensitive to this because my life right now is in the WAIT. It's been almost two years that I am in the WAIT that I feel tired and exhausted of waiting more that further waiting could already break me down. I feel like giving up. A determined person that I am (or was), I don't easily give up. But now, I am in the brink towards down. I don't have that powerful strength anymore that I used to have.
Hold on or give up? What is it that I really, really want? But in the present situation, which one outweighs the other?
Hold on or not? Give up or not? Why such dilemma?
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They say that when you pray, you pray specifically. You talk to God (as a Father, a brother, a master or whatever you're accustomed to) and ask for specific things to give you or to happen in your life. This I do. I specify things because I believe that I should NOT limit what God can do or give. And I am not ashamed of asking Him this or that because I know that He is a God, who listens and have compassion to those who will come up to Him and speak. That is the God I know.
I have two specific prayers among the myriad of others. If God grants me one of those, He can forget the other (or do it later). Or, if God grants me the other one, He can forget the other as well (or do it later). Or, if God grants me both simultaneously, that is already a bonus. I will be the luckiest woman on earth.
Status? Well, none yet is granted as of now. Back to what I said, this is part of the strings of wait-and-see. I know the stress of waiting but that doesn't stop me from believing no matter how God seems very slow in addressing my requests. Maybe, the queue must be very very long and I'm unfortunate to be at end. But just like in a queue, every one has it's turn. You just have to wait.
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So January is over. Today is February already. 1 down, 11 to go!
Winter is still in its peak here in Dubai. So, we have to savour every bit of foggy mornings and super cold afternoons before the devilish summer heat strikes back. This year's winter though is not as cold as it was two years back, which is the coldest winter I've experienced so far in Dubai.
Like everything changes, season changes quick. Like how I am reluctant to some life's changes, that's how I am reluctant to welcome summer.
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And before this blog ends, I'd like to wish everyone a life full of LOVE this month of Hearts, this month of LOVE.
LOVE is such a universal thing and a universal feeling that it indeed deserves a day in a year to celebrate it.
Love is a beautiful thing and I wish that everyone will always experience its beauty, including me. *Fingers crossed*
HAPPY VALENTINE'S DAY whoever you are!
On the other hand, if I'd want the world to pace slow, everything else will follow the same pace. I get bored and run out of patience most of the time especially when you have set of expectations and high hopes already laid ahead of you, that you will almost think of the saying 'patience is a virtue' is ridiculous, only a cliche. And I would say 'God is very slow in answering my prayers'.
I know I am very sensitive to this because my life right now is in the WAIT. It's been almost two years that I am in the WAIT that I feel tired and exhausted of waiting more that further waiting could already break me down. I feel like giving up. A determined person that I am (or was), I don't easily give up. But now, I am in the brink towards down. I don't have that powerful strength anymore that I used to have.
Hold on or give up? What is it that I really, really want? But in the present situation, which one outweighs the other?
Hold on or not? Give up or not? Why such dilemma?
**********
They say that when you pray, you pray specifically. You talk to God (as a Father, a brother, a master or whatever you're accustomed to) and ask for specific things to give you or to happen in your life. This I do. I specify things because I believe that I should NOT limit what God can do or give. And I am not ashamed of asking Him this or that because I know that He is a God, who listens and have compassion to those who will come up to Him and speak. That is the God I know.
I have two specific prayers among the myriad of others. If God grants me one of those, He can forget the other (or do it later). Or, if God grants me the other one, He can forget the other as well (or do it later). Or, if God grants me both simultaneously, that is already a bonus. I will be the luckiest woman on earth.
Status? Well, none yet is granted as of now. Back to what I said, this is part of the strings of wait-and-see. I know the stress of waiting but that doesn't stop me from believing no matter how God seems very slow in addressing my requests. Maybe, the queue must be very very long and I'm unfortunate to be at end. But just like in a queue, every one has it's turn. You just have to wait.
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So January is over. Today is February already. 1 down, 11 to go!
Winter is still in its peak here in Dubai. So, we have to savour every bit of foggy mornings and super cold afternoons before the devilish summer heat strikes back. This year's winter though is not as cold as it was two years back, which is the coldest winter I've experienced so far in Dubai.
Like everything changes, season changes quick. Like how I am reluctant to some life's changes, that's how I am reluctant to welcome summer.
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And before this blog ends, I'd like to wish everyone a life full of LOVE this month of Hearts, this month of LOVE.
LOVE is such a universal thing and a universal feeling that it indeed deserves a day in a year to celebrate it.
Love is a beautiful thing and I wish that everyone will always experience its beauty, including me. *Fingers crossed*
HAPPY VALENTINE'S DAY whoever you are!
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