Gibberish

Just babbling -- so pay no attention!

Hate when not being able to put emotions into words
Not because I can't but because it makes no sense.
Sad not being able to express hurt than tears
within my heart's confines
'Cause eyes couldn't cry no more.
For having no right to be mad at the situation
For having no right to get mad at who
For the indifference and insensitiveness
For falling for the wrong person at the right time
Or was it rather the right person at the wrong time?
For all the lies and cowardice
For dying to know the truth but not being able to ask
And not able to tell the other part of the truth
For not having the strength to accept what is unpleasant
For the gap and distance
There's no way to rebuild a bridge that once was burned down
For not being able to say sorry that's enough to be forgiven
For not knowing his heart
For being blind about the future
That there will be no future after all
For him who doesn't know much
Who doesn't care and realize how strong can be that love
Too late to realize
Too broken to mend
'Sorry' would never be enough
Not knowing what's enough
For hating the one you once have loved
Being hated for who you were not
Not able to speak to someone who doesn't listen
What it used to be will seem only a memory
Part of the past, never will be a present, future the more
For the pain i needlessly endure to grave (this is too much!)
Loss of someone who never once mine
Forgetting -- a daily struggle
Brooding over the past that should have long been buried in the abyss
Memories recur uninvited
Yet total abandonment never conceded
Hoping means 'hoping against hoping'
No place for every vivid for a make-believer
Swooned with denial
A promise broken
A promise of finding way back
All unfaithfully ungranted
A love that perhaps was never love at all
But never knowing what it was then
If it wasn't at all.