The Phoenix in me

Written o6.03.08
Originally posted to multiply

I’ve been feeling this heavy burden since last week. But, I have no choice but to give a happy facade. It’s not that I’m turning away from the root of all my predicaments, but if I let myself be shaken by the tempest, I’ll be losing my sanity.

I’ve always thought I am tough and strong in my petite figure. But, even the strongest bends. Even the toughest retreats once in a while. Behind this strong projection, lies vulnerability in me. Yes, certain situations inflicted me badly, made me weak, sad, passive and left me no option but to move on. My spirits died and vanished.

But, like a Phoenix that dies in flames and is reborn from the ashes, so do I. I will regain my spirits. I know, my faith in the Omnipotent and Omniscient being and the strength of my character are only put to test. And all of these are just part of some Divine workings to make me even stronger and wiser by the lessons painstakingly learnt along the way.

In all of these dark clouds, comes silver lining afterwards. I just have to go back to the most basic thing to do and that is prayer and surrender to the Father’s loving and comforting arms because He is in control of everything. No matter what these situations will lead me through, I won’t hold grip loosely from the mighty hands of the Supreme but hang on as tight as I can. Never give up. Always regenerating when hurt or wounded. Be invincible like a phoenix.